slow down, sister.
Have you ever experienced an epiphany from what someone has said to you even when they weren’t intending to give you advice? How did that feel? Relieving? Eye opening?
Same, same.
Yesterday was an emotional day. I don’t mean pitty party, I had a bad day type of day but, a day where I used a ton of my emotions. By 9:00pm rolled around, I was exhausted. Ever have those, mamas? Simply exhausted from feelings! Cheers to that.
I took Owen to my salon in the city to see my girls, get it clean and to get ready for reopening soon. Not only is the salon so bright and beautiful from the new paint but there was lots of stimulation. Imagine lying on the floor and you have nothing but pretty women up over above you saying how cute you are. Sounds exhausting, right? So that was a great start to our day!
We get home in the afternoon and we went on a walk over to South Shore with Grandma Susan, my boyfriends mother. We go on walks with Grandma everyday, it’s such a special time of the day. She gets to spend time with her grandson she absolutely adores and let’s be real, it’s nice having a conversation with someone other than speaking in your high pitch mom voice and repeating “who’s the best little boy in the world?!” as if he’s your pet. She’s one of the sweetest people I have ever met and her knowledge about many things is impressive and fun to listen to.
Owen has been a little fussier than normal lately and he was fighting his naps sooo hard. Poor little guy. On our walk I had to stop 3 times to nurse. We found a secluded bench and I happen to say to Susan, “I feel like the universe is telling me to slow down right now and take a deep breath.”
Her reply, “Absolutely, there is no important time than now to do that. It might be fun to be on the go but these are the moments to rest.”
I was dead in my tracks because she was so right. I won’t ever get these moments with Owen again and to actually absorb all of these tiny little reminders that he’s growing more and more every single day. Right in front of my eyes. I know I am present while being in front of him but, I want to make sure I am present. No one has figured out how to slow down or stop time so you’ve got to do it yourself. Roll with the punches and be in control of your own time.
One major lesson that Owen has taught me is that you pay more close attention to time once you have kids. They are the clocks of our future. We get to watch them evolve right in front of our eyes. We are watching time pass through them. You value time so much more than you did before. You tend to put aside habits and routines that once worked for you and traded them in for ones that cater strictly to that tiny little creation of yours. Forget your terrible posture from breastfeeding and showering everyday, it’s their world you live in now. But mama, never forget that you are who makes the ship sail. You must make sure you put your needs before and remember that the sail doesn’t go up unless the ship is mended and ready to rock. You, mama. You are the ship. You need to slow down for those moments and make sure you are well to hit those big waves that happen every single day. Those milestone storms that come but yet too, pass.
Set sail.
